Thank you God for letting me stop and smell the roses...

I had a car accident a little over 6 years ago...It is this one event that has changed the way I operate and see life.  It wasn't having a child, or getting married, or anything most people say, that changed their life! I mean all those things did have a valid effect on me and my life, but the most of all, was the car accident. It wasn't life threatening, I mean I am still alive, Thank God! But I was hurt in many ways, endured several surgeries parts of my body being changed, operated on and removed because of someone that chose not to pay attention when they were driving!!!!!  I was rear ended AND then shoved into and hit from the front by another vehicle, a pick up truck!! It cost me my job, my day to day exsistance and almost my marriage!! It didnt kill me, but it killed some of my life as I knew it.  It has slowed me down, sometimes I use a cane. If a bear sneaks up on me in the wilderness, I will pray for God to give me wings, as running won't happen, and I will be bear dinner! I used to be running all the time, always on the go!  I now stop and smell the roses. I was at the store yesterday, my friend said, "oh where have you been" I said my usual, I told her" I filled my gas tank a month ago!" and she said, "thats cuz you never go anywhere", I said "exactly!" I really don't have anywhere I'm just dying to go.. I don't want to rush through my day anymore, I savor each moment, and try to make it count!  I try to enjoy each day as it comes, no rush no hurry. If it doesnt get done today, there is always they say tomorrow...which I feel lucky and blessed to have...I am fortunate that through all this, my husband has been there although its been hard and maybe hardest for him, as he had to take over all my household duties for a long time while I healed...and mentally and emotionally I was a mess!!! I still have problems doing too many things at once, or making any kind of real decisions! I can't work anymore, I used to pride my self in that part of me.  I want to take the pain of which I experience every day, and turn it into a feeling ; feeling and experiencing life every day. No pain no gain? ~ I say you can't gain, unless you feel pain. Somehow, when you have felt pain, whether 1 hour or every hour, you see something different in each person that is dealing with pain. It has taught me not to judge someone by them getting out of a car, and they look fine, but yet they park in the handicapped spot. You see, I too have gotten the "look", from people, who think I look fine, although I am not on some days.. You see their eyes, and hear their fears and resentments.Their frustrations and anger just below the surface, of wanting and hoping, praying to be whole again. You understand their desire to be whole again, even if its only in a dream or a thought of what could be. You want them to know that you understand, so just by a glance, a smile and a prayer, they in some small way know you are a part of what holds them up, even if just for a passing glance, or standing next to them in the grocery line...for a brief moment, you two are one.