I'm having a really hard day today. Very lonely and sad. I could'nt sleep well last night, even with warm milk and a banana. I finally had to make some camomile tea, and take a bendadryl as I was itching something fierce from my withdrawls. As most of you that know me, I never do anything in small increments, Im either in or Im out! So, to say that I would not go cold turkey, would have been out of character for me. So three days ago, I quit my fibromyalgia and anxiety/sleep meds. I think they are adding to my weight, and making me more groggy, foggy and puffy and retaining water. Who needs that? And unfortunately, the pills doing what they were supposed to do, wasn't working either. Today found me in the dumps yesterday was really good. I can't get into my studies for the Bible study group, I feel really depressed, I was crying most of the day today and I
don't want to do anything but putter on the puter, and talk to my best friend Kimmie..
I couldn't even go to Bible Study today, I was not feeling well, and didnt want to "infect" anyone with my attitude and feelings. The disease of the wilderness, not having any thing to do, or a reason to be. I actually stared at the bath water going down the drain today until completetion! That was an amazing thing! I was thinking, wow, if I tell anyone this, they will say "and she wasn't ON drugs?" scary thought. Its a beautiful day here in the neighborhood, but the ice on the roads is hazardous at best, don't want to take the chance.
I'll just stay home, stay warm, and have a sanwich and some tea. God willing, tomorrow will be a better day, hopefully with some long overdue sleep tonight, or the bears will have to be afraid of ME!
1 comment:
Hi Shoshana,
I just happened to find your blog tonight as I'm crawling into bed and checking emails...I have fibromyalgia and recently went through a withdrawal period as well. Don't be hard on yourself. It is a very difficult change for the body to adjust to. It will probably take a few weeks or a couple of months before you start feeling closer to normal. Be gentle with yourself and remember how much God loves you. He totally understands what you're going through. I'll keep you in my prayers.
Gentle hug,
April Blounts
ablounts@yahoo.com
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