Weight and wait........

I am struggling with two "w" words....Weight and wait. Ever since my accident 3 years ago, my weight has gone up up because of not being able to exercise because of the pain. Walking is painful after a short time, and I have tried low impact aerobics, curves, etc, so now I just have to watch what I eat, and try to move around more than I am comfortable with, do I have a choice? Which leads me to WAIT........I am waiting for things to change. I am waiting for the Lord to deliver me from all the woes we now face, Im am waiting for disability to make the right decision and give me the disability that I deserve for paying into it for so many years, and now that I need it, being there for me....I am waiting for my car settlement to wrap up, but I will not settle for chump change....This accident has changed and fouled up my life in ways I don't even think I can vocalize. It has hurt my life, job prospecting, marriage, intimate life, hearing, I mean if you can't hear what normal people hear, then how do you work for/ help others when you can't understand what they need? I can speak, THANK GOD and I can see!!!!! Halleujah! I know what sounds are supposed to sound like, from having hearing before, but now that it is distorted and in and out, I really apprectiate seeing something that I cannot hear. I am glad that I didn't have to wait for a wonderful man, my hubby a gift from God, while I was waiting for another situation to fall into place, God allowed me to have a special gift from above, and unfortunately, my hubby is waiting for me, to be the woman he met and fell in love with, but I can never be that woman again, because of this accident. I know that God makes all things work for good for those who love him, and I know that I was in the right place at the right time, e even though its painful, I would not have been in the situation to "listen" as I was being out of work, yeah, I lost my job because of this accident, which wasn't my fault!!!! ARGGHHGHHHHH!!!! It is just the pits. I want to be vibrant again, and able to be the wife that my husband deserves, and able to be with others, hear them, interact with them, without feeling left out all the time, it is very lonely. So, with the weight on my shoulders, I will wait........